End to Beginning (eBook)

A Healing Story of Ayahuasca

Tanner Critz (Autor)

eBook Download: EPUB

2025
454 Seiten
Flaming Brands (Verlag)
979-8-9997159-3-7 (ISBN)

Infos

At the edge, when even breath became a struggle, Tanner Critz found himself laid low-not in the wilderness, but in his own home, a shell of the man who once walked the Appalachian Trail. End to Beginning is a raw and luminous account of what happened next: a journey not across mountains, but into the depths of memory, mystery, and healing.

Guided by a friend, he enters the world of Ayahuasca ceremony in a suburban house, far from the jungles of South America but no less potent. The book recounts four transformative retreats over the course of two-and-a-half years, where the author battles despair, dredges up long-buried guilt, and confronts both his past and his potential with astonishing vulnerability.

There are no easy revelations here. What unfolds is equal parts psychedelic, psychological, and mythic: visions of flesh, heart, energy, and power. As the ceremonies progress, Critz learns to let go-not just of illness, but of the identity that illness had transformed. What emerges is not the return of an old self, but the shaping of a new one.

Told with warmth, grit, and flashes of the surreal, End to Beginning is a memoir of healing, fatherhood, and initiation into life after collapse. It stands as a companion piece to End to Ending-a second trail, walked inward, toward the root of suffering and the strange, luminous possibility of joy.

Inhalt

Acknowledgements

Part One - Ends

• Chapter 1 - Stillness
• Chapter 2 - Dieta
• Chapter 3 - White Robes and Astroturf
• Chapter 4 - A Knock at the Door
• Chapter 5 - New Life
• Chapter 6 - A Still Turning Road
• Chapter 7 - How Now?
• Chapter 8 - Quynh
• Chapter 9 - There's a Curtain?

Part Two - Fire in the Water

• Chapter 10 - Guides to the Heart
• Chapter 11 - Out of Frame
• Chapter 12 - What Can't Be Touched
• Chapter 13 - I Am
• Chapter 14 - The Medicine
• Chapter 15 - A Still, Small Voice
• Chapter 16 - The Plastic Temple
• Chapter 17 - The Inner Path
• Chapter 18 - Of Spinning Wheels
• Chapter 19 - Ever Turning

Part Three - The Hammer of Creation and Destruction

• Chapter 20 - A Crown of Storms
• Chapter 21 - A Hand Full of Fire
• Chapter 22 - A Date With the Shadow
• Chapter 23 - A Night in Armor

Part Four - Unity

• Chapter 24 - The Ghost in my Chest
• Chapter 25 - Love and Honor
• Chapter 26 - Things We Carry

Part Five - Integration

• Chapter 27 - For the Love of our Fathers
• Chapter 28 - It Was All the Way

Lessons

• Lesson 1 - The Gate of Mourning
• Lesson 2 - The Energetic Lattice
• Lesson 3 - The Still, Small Voice
• Lesson 4 - I Am the Medicine
• Lesson 5 - The Power You Wield
• Lesson 6 - The Hurt That Won't Heal
• Lesson 7 - A Battle of Forgiveness

About the Author

An Excerpt from End to Ending

Produkt-Details

• Erscheint lt. Verlag: 1.9.2025
• Sprache: englisch
• Themenwelt: Literatur ► Biografien / Erfahrungsberichte
• Schlagworte: Ayahuasca healing • ayahuasca integration • consciousness exploration • entheogenic spirituality • Forgiveness and healing • healing trauma story • long covid recovery • mystical experience memoir • Personal transformation book • plant medicine journey • psychedelic spirituality • Psychedelic therapy • shamanic healing memoir • Spiritual awakening story • spiritual memoir
• ISBN-13: 979-8-9997159-3-7 / 9798999715937