LIFE OF JOHN (eBook)

NIGHTMARES REVEALED

Musfeq Salehin (Autor)

eBook Download: EPUB

2025
185 Seiten
Musfeq Salehin (Verlag)
978-1-0671526-0-4 (ISBN)

Infos

Life of John (Nightmares Revealed) is a story of love, loss, and the silent battles that shape a life.
Haunted by memories he cannot erase, John struggles to find meaning in a world that has taken almost everything from him.
Through the loyalty of a true friend and the echoes of a love he once knew, John faces the hardest fight of all-the fight for his own soul.
A moving journey of pain, hope, and redemption, Life of John (Nightmares Revealed) stays with you long after the last page.

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The man in the wheelchair

 

 

Sitting in a wheelchair, John thinks about those years of his life—the times he has left behind. What else can he do? He has no one except a family friend who lives thousands of kilometre away from him.

What went wrong in his life? Why are life’s ups and downs so unpredictable?

The fantasy of his life remains a dream. Dreams of living a happy family life, growing older with the woman he had always loved—the one he chose to spend his life with.

They shared countless moments, both big and small—walking hand in hand, raising their children, and later, watching their grandchildren run around the house, filling their days with laughter.

As the years passed, their love only deepened, becoming a quiet but unbreakable bond. When his time came, it would not be filled with fear or regret.

He was in her arms, just as he had been so many times before. She held him close, and with a soft smile, he took his final breath, knowing he had lived a full life—surrounded by love until the very end.

 

All messed up, his life is completely ruined. He will not be able to fulfil his dreams anymore. Now, lonely in a room, he can barely breathe.

A three point three by two point eight-meters room. A small dining lounge with a mini kitchen and a toilet next to it. He has no companion to talk to, no one to share good moments with. He is completely alone and lonely.

John knows this is his fate; this is the reality of life. When your days are dark, your family and friends are few.

However, he never expected that one person would leave him in this situation. He always thought she would never leave him under any circumstances. Then how could she leave him when he needed her the most?

 

For the last six and half years, he has been trying to figure it out, searching for answers—how and why? Did she ever really love him? Can love change? Does she still remember him or their memories? How could she deceive him?

All these thoughts are running through his mind. He debunks the deception that God and she played on him. He has not left his room for years; he does not feel the need to go out. He no longer wants sympathy from the outside world. If she, the one he trusted the most, could leave him, why should he expect anything from others? He never thought she would abandon him like this, and the pain of her departure left him broken and questioning everything.

John has become stubborn, insecure, and unsociable. He was not like that before. Over the last couple of years, he has changed.

Maybe the betrayals from the people he once knew made him this way. But mostly, it is because of her—the woman he loved from the bottom of his heart, the one he thought was his soulmate, the one he desired the most, the one he praised.

He locks himself in his room twenty-four hours a day. He doesn’t remember when the last time was, he took a breath of fresh air on his skin- as if the world outside had forgotten him too.

He thanks Salim, the only one who comes from Johannesburg to cape town every month to bring him groceries.

But buddy has disappeared for the last few months. Where is he now? He doesn’t even call anymore. For the last couple of months, buddy didn’t seem okay. What is happening to him?

Salim—a brother, a friend. he thinks he is fortunate to have a friend like him. Salim tried to take John to his place. Salim’s wife, Anjali, begged him to stay with them. But the stubborn one refused.

 

The last time Anjali left, she was crying, saying she would never, ever come to see him again. She had told him to come and stay with them as a family, but he didn’t care. Though he tried to phone her many times, she never spoke to him. But Salim still comes—he cannot stay away.

Today, whatever Salim is, it is because of him and Shan. When Salim first arrived in south Africa, he was robbed at Johannesburg airport. He had nowhere to go. That day, he found Salim lying next to buddy’s car. John woke him up. They chatted for a while, and John took him in. Salim’s life changed.

When Salim wanted to marry Anjali, a local Indian beauty, Shan and he played a big role as his guardians. Shan spent money on Salim’s wedding because of john. Salim’s successful life today is because of john. Salim feels responsible for John, who is like more than a brother and a friend to him.

Salim’s seven-year-old daughter, Muskaan, calls john every day. She used to visit with Anjali, but for the past few months, she hasn’t come. Instead, she calls and asks him, “When are you coming?”

He replies, “One day, I will.”

He knows Anjali is behind Muskaan’s call. He tried to talk to Anjali, but she wouldn’t speak to him. Every time he left a message, asking for forgiveness, she ignored it. She had promised that if he doesn’t come with them, she would never talk to him again.

She even asked him, “If I were your blood sister, would you still refuse?”

But he didn’t reply. He kept quiet. He didn’t want to be a burden to anyone.

If the love of his life could leave him—the one who swore to die with him—then why should he become a burden to others, even if they are now his only family?

How could she leave him? Is there no value in love, relationships, and promises? They were happily married for only a few years.

He hasn’t even seen his only son since she left. The baby was two years old then. John can only guess—his boy, his only child, must be growing up now.

He collapses to his knees, tears streaming down his face, and stares up at the sky. With a voice trembling in pain, he cries out, “Why? Why did you do this to me? What have I ever done to deserve this? Why am I broken, shattered like this now?”

His voice cracks, raw with emotion, “I will never forgive you! You have destroyed everything—my life, my family, my dreams!”

His fists clench as he struggles to breathe between sobs, “I trusted you! I believed in you… but you do not deserve it. You do not deserve to be worshipped. Not anymore.”

He shakes his head, his voice barely a whisper, “I will never, ever pray to you again.”

He blames God for his misery. He lights a cigarette and writes in his diary:

“I, John martin, do not believe in God. He is an unseen troublemaker who created human toys and plays with them as he wants. I don’t believe in him anymore, and no one else should either. We don’t want to be his playthings; he causes all the troubles in the world.”

He looks up at the sky and laughs.

He says, “You see, you do not deserve to be worshipped. I won’t worship you, and I want people to do the same.”

He asks, “Why did you do this to me?”

John pushes the wheelchair toward the fridge. He opens it and takes out a beer. It’s locally made, but it’s his favourite.

Talking to himself, he says, “Thanks, Salim. I will never be able to repay you in my lifetime.”

He laughs bitterly and says, “How would I repay you? I am a cripple in a wheelchair. It’s him who doesn’t want me to repay you,” looking up at the sky.

John screams, his voice echoing in the empty room. Tears fall down his face as he puffs on his cigarette, the smoke swirling around him. He takes a swig from the bottle, his hands trembling, then laughs bitterly through his sobs.

 

The next morning, he woke up at 8 am, raised his hand, and prayed, “Thank you, God. Please forgive me. I’m a sinner. Accept my apology, please. I will follow your path from now on.”

He got into the wheelchair and went to the toilet. After a while, he came out of there.

John looked completely different from what he was even yesterday. He looked like someone who had gotten a new life. He shaved his beard after a long time. If buddy were here, he could have given him a kiss on his chin.

“Where is buddy? Damn, buddy, you forgot me?” John thought to himself. He took the milk out of the fridge and poured it into a bowl. He took some cornflakes. John’s face was blushing. Before he started to eat, he said, “By the name of God, I am taking my breakfast.”

What happened to him last night? Why is he so polite? He is not like that, so what happened? Today, he is completely different from the John before. He finished his breakfast quietly. While eating, he used to shout at God, “I can do it myself, I don’t need you.”

However, today, he did not make any noise; there was no anger. He finished his meal in silence, and when he was done, he even bowed his head and prayed, “Amen. Thank you, God, for this lovely breakfast.”

John is behaving suspiciously today; what is wrong with him? What is he going to do, or what plan does he have in his mind? What happened last night?

He washed the bowls and put them in the right place. He turned the wheelchair towards the small table.

But then he turned to his bed and picked up the phone. He called Salim, “Hi, Salim, what’s up?”

Salim asked him if he had slept well last night. He replied that it was the best sleep he had ever had.

He asked, “Can you bring me some writing pads and pens when you come next time?”

Salim answered yes but wanted to know what he would do with them.

He just said, “You will see one day. Bye, I have to do something. Say hi to my sister and niece.”

He hung up the phone. He went towards the table, picked up the pen, and the diary.

He wrote:

Last night, God came into my dream. Last night, before I went to bed, I mistakenly said goodnight to God, something I hadn’t done for...

Produkt-Details

• Erscheint lt. Verlag: 14.12.2025
• Sprache: englisch
• Themenwelt: Literatur ► Romane / Erzählungen
• Schlagworte: Deep friendship bond • emotional love story • Heart breaking romance • inner battles and redemption • Painful past memories • psychological drama • Sad romantic journey
• ISBN-10: 1-0671526-0-1 / 1067152601
• ISBN-13: 978-1-0671526-0-4 / 9781067152604